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A new little heartbeat has joined the rhythm of our household, and things are certainly flowing differently around here!  I’ve traded the tap, tap, tap of the keyboard for the creak, creak, creak of my rocking chair, circle times songs for lullabies, and evenings of staying up late to work on business and crafting, for cuddling this tiny bundle of sweetness.   Enveloped in new mama rapture, I only caught a glimpse of spring’s arrival, and now that is has warmed up and the baby is six weeks old, I’m venturing outside more often.  The woods are bursting with life- and my favorite spring ephemerals surprise me in every nook and cranny.

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When we first walk in, there is tons of false green hellebore (veratrum nigrum), which I identified with the help of the Plant Identification group on Facebook (click here to join).  I have been wondering for a few years what it was.  The leaves are so bright green and cheery, but it is a toxic plant- I read that Native Americans used the root as an endurance test to determine new chiefs.  The would-be leaders all ingested some, and whoever was the last to start vomiting was elected ruler!

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All over the woodland floor, an army of single trout lily leaves poke up, their mottled colors looking like camouflage banners.  It can take up to five years for the trout lily (Erythronium americanum) to produce a flower, if it decides to at all, and meanwhile its tiny bulb (or corm) stores up energy for that grand task.  When it is ready, it sends up a set of leaves in lieu of the single one, and the dainty upside down yellow-bronze petals emerge.  I’ve heard talk of placing a rock below the trout lily bulb, as they seem to blossom better in shallow, rocky soils where they are less able to propagate via a network of underground offshoots from the corm (which is small, but edible), or tuber like ball at the end of the root.  Trout lilies like to hedge their bets against uncertain spring weather by spreading via this underground network of shoots, rather than depending on blossoming and pollination- which is why you often find huge colonies of the single leaves where the soil is rich and deep.  Where it is shallow and rocky, they have no choice but to reproduce via pollination and you are more likely to find the lovely yellow flowers.

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Next along the path, I find blue cohosh (Caulophyllum thalictroides) everywhere I turn- our woods are just full of it! It begins as the “purple dragon plant”, as I named it before I learned what it was-

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and grows taller, spreads out, and the leaves unfurl from purply, feathered, and closed, to green, mature plants- tho the stems remain dark compared to surrounding green stems of other plants.  The transformation reminds me of the birthing process, as the uterus contracts from tightly wrapped around the newborn babe, to expand and swell.  Blue cohosh was called “Papoose Root” by Native Americans who used it widely for women’s issues- a uterine tonic.  I plan to harvest some this year- but first, I’d like to just spend some time with it and be more in tune with the essence of this Woman’s Herb that has ushered so much life into this world, including my second born, a plant to which I am very grateful.   While black cohosh stimulates contractions, blue cohosh is an anti-spasmodic, helping to “tone down” the intensity, to bring relief and release during the moon cycle and labor.

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Eventually it will fruit into small blue berries, which are not safe to eat raw, but have been roasted as a coffee substitute.  The plants are perennial, and just as we as women mature and become more and more confident in our mothering with each babe we bring into the world, the blue cohosh roots grow and every year as the plant dies back, the roots “cap”, so you can tell how old a cohosh plant is when you harvest it by counting the caps. See some pictures of the roots caps, along with a beautiful perspective of the plant, here.

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Dainty spring beauties (Claytonia virginica) peek out along the trail, another perennial that overwinters via a corm stored underground- that has been dubbed “fairy spuds”.  Native Americans believed eating the raw roots would prevent conception- permanently- but ate them,  cooked liked potatoes- as food. I prefer to let them grow and blossom than harvest them for teeny tiny snacks!  Don’t worry fairies, we won’t steal your spuds.

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A wise old maple with an inviting limb to look out from, or sit and read a book.

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Early spring walks always reveal the trees that didn’t make it through the winter.  Some we leave to compost back into the soil and provide habitat for lichens, moss, fungi, and critters.  Others we will use for firewood.

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Cut leaved toothwort, which I blogged about last year, here.

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And here is Chipmunk Gully, a place where fallen logs crisscross the steep creek banks and playful chipmunks run circles around the kids as they play, peeking up to be spotted, then ducking back into their hidy holes.

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The wild leeks, or ramps, are looking incredible this year.  My husband digs a bunch up to munch along the trail and to add to our dinner.  They are spicy, sweet, and pungent… my favorite spring edible, and there are thousands here in the woods now. Here is a recipe.

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There are lots of mayapples- and I loved this one just beside a crevice under a log.  See the nuts hidden away under there?  I’m sure the fairies and wee creatures are enjoying their new porch umbrella’s shade!

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And everywhere, the trees, bushes and shrubs are budding.  I am sure the woods will smell enchanted next week when things begin to blossom! Of course, plants aren’t the only thing growing around here…

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What’s growing in your neck of the woods?

After publishing my last blog post, I went to snuggle my 3 yr old goodnight and fell asleep (as I often do!) in her bed. I woke a few hours later, around 11:00 pm and thought my water might be breaking. Sure enough when I stood up, it was time- and I had a small contraction.  I called my midwife’s assistant, who lives close by.  We debated whether or not she should come right away, and then I had another contraction (it had been about 5 minutes since the first) and we decided she should definitely come right away.  Meanwhile, my house was a bit of a disaster.  We’d had a grand old time with friends earlier that day, 8 wild kids running around the house- and I think every plate and cup in the house were dirty.  I quickly rinsed everything and got the dishwasher going, cleaned the bath toys out of the bath and scrubbed it sparkly clean, straightened up a bit, pausing during contractions… then donned the only appropriate birthing attire I could find, a bikini bottom and (since I couldn’t find the top), a bright pink tank top that I tied up over my huge belly since I didn’t want to be wearing soggy clothes soaking waist down in the tub.  I was about to hop in the tub and try to relax when another family member threw up… all over the kitchen floor.   So 45 minutes after my water broke there I was, on my hands and knees wiping up puke in my bikini bottoms with my huge belly hanging out when in walks Emma to help me have this baby!  I got into the tub, got my candles lit, turned my tunes on and tried to relax as she took my blood pressure and listened to the baby’s heartbeat.

But I couldn’t get comfortable.  Boy were those contractions strong! I really started to feel terrified that I wouldn’t be able to endure a few hours of labor if already it was that strong.  I actually felt panic- and then I realized this baby was ready.  I certainly didn’t expect him to come so quickly but when I realized he was ready, the panic started to subside. Minutes later I was holding my babe (about an hour and fifteen minutes since my water broke)! The most beautiful little boy, with a thick head of dark hair.  My midwife, Meg, arrived shortly after, and once the equipment was sterilized for the cord clamping about half hour later, we woke my oldest son up as he’d asked to be the one to cut the cord.  I pushed the placenta out, took my healing herbal post-partum bath, and by 3 am I was snuggled up in bed with my husband and new baby!

I’ve been trying to relax (honestly I am not that good at it- or at least, not at all used to it!), and have definitely bonded with the little man.  Our days are full of…

snuggles (I know a good Waldorf mother would have a bonnet on her baby’s head but I just can’t resist the feel of his little head tucked under my chin when I wear him in the sling, with all that silky smooth baby hair to nuzzle against!)

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reading…  The Land of Stories: The Wishing Spell to my children (it’s a must-read!) and The Incarnating Child for me,

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and cookies.  (Snickerdoodles! Because they are so much fun to make.)

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Although other than an occasional snickerdoodle, my breastfeeding diet is pretty much dairy free and brassica free- with lots of Weleda nursing tea to soothe digestion… as this seems to work best for my babes.

So many thanks for all the love and support sent my way, our family is doing wonderfully and our little Ray of Light feels like such a part of our family, it’s hard to imagine that just ten days ago we hadn’t even seen his beautiful eyes open to take in the world yet!

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It’s almost time… and in between ordering everything for our last Cedar Ring Circle order and waiting for shipments to arrive so I can pack and ship them to members, I worked on readying a peaceful birthing atmosphere here at home. I plan to labor in our downstairs bathroom, one of my favorite rooms in our 1849 farmhouse. It used to be a dining room, so it has lovely stained glass windows and is nice and roomy. The previous owners lovingly restored and installed an old clawfoot tub here (thank you!!). During my last labor, I found it so relaxing to listen to music in a dim, candlelit room while soaking in water- so soothing for contracting muscles, that it was really only the last 15 minutes before my daughter was born where I found labor to be difficult and intense. I know every labor is different, and I am not expecting this child to enter the world exactly as his or her siblings, but hopefully it will be just as gentle a birth as my last.

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Mama Erin gave me this beautiful orchid, and Big Dipper Waxworks sent me their new beeswax Citrus Grove Pomelo Candle (thanks Jody and all at Big Dipper!).

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I think flowers are such beautiful imagery for giving birth.  During labor I like to imagine myself opening like a flower greeting the sun.

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In the windowsill beside the tub I placed a candle surrounded by crystals, a fingerknit bracelet, and card sent by a co-op member and her son- thanks Jennifer and family!  I feel surrounded by love and support.

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The changing table awaits a tiny bundle- with freshly laundered blankets, diapers, a neutral layette, and a choice of hats- pink or blue? We are so excited to greet this new face and discover if it is a new daughter, or a new son.  My Ipod is also tucked in there, with my birthing playlist ready to rock.

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Homebirth supplies are at the ready… I have a list from our midwifery practice which includes an herbal bath specially designed for a postpartum soak to help heal faster.

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I am usually occupied (with a new baby) when they make it, but I think they take the herbs and garlic and wrap them in cheesecloth like a giant teabag and steep in a pot of boiling water for a bit, then add it to the bath.  There is 1/2 cup sea salt, 1 oz dried yarrow, 1 oz uva ursi, 1 oz witch hazel bark, 2 oz comfrey leaf or root, and 1 large bulb of garlic.  The big bowl is for the placenta.  My oldest son *really* wants to cut the umbilical cord this time… we’ll see how things go!

I really love my midwifery team… Meg has been catching babies for 30 years (over 2,000 babies- wow!), Emma (a Cedar Ring Circle member!) has been assisting for about 4 years, and the newest midwife in the group, Martha, has put her daughter through a Waldorf kindergarten and I feel very much on the same wavelength (although not nearly as knowledgeable!) as these women.  I love how intuitive Meg is, during my last birth I think she knew I was happy to be alone, and this time I will probably want the same thing.  For me, concentrating on the music I am listening to and the imagery I have created for my birth help me most relax and get into that birthing “zone”, and anything else feels like a distraction. When the baby is ready to come, it just comes (couldn’t stop it if I tried!)… I haven’t experienced any need for coaching on pushing or cervical checks- just a few blood pressure and heartbeat checks to ensure the baby and I are doing well as we work together, and the rest of the time, the team is discreet and nearby, but not overly in “my space”.

I’m also getting a basket ready for my “recovery room”- I plan to stay upstairs for 3 days after the birth, only venturing from my bedroom to the bathroom.  It will be a time to rest, nurse, and maybe knit (desperately need some newborn wool soakers!), read, or needlefelt while the babe sleeps… I am working on a needle-felted angels-and-mother-with-child mobile to hang over the baby’s cradle.  Pictures to come when it is finished…

Wow, two years ago today the Cedar Ring Mama blog was born.  Funny how blogging changes you as you start to interpret your life more and more through the media of photographs and words, trying to portray the actual moments in ways that sometimes fall a bit short, and other times perhaps overly glamorize, the real thing.  But mostly, I appreciate a place to record the happenings of life, as looking back I know that had I not blogged, some of them would certainly have been forgotten- even if it was just the beautiful purple of the sky one twilight evening near Michaelmas, those bright red mushrooms we found in the woods one day, or that recipe I posted and never wrote down anywhere else that I pinned to my own pinterest board to keep from losing.

So, in honor of two years of memories cherished and the joy of connecting with many of you who follow the blog, I think a giveaway is in order!  Since spring is going to be coming around the corner soon, I prepared some goodies to help you decorate your spring nature table…

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The new Margaret Bloom book, Making Peg Dolls…

An assortment of 25 peg people and 8 sheets of wool felt to get you started on your peg dolls…

Ostheimer’s “Root Children” silhouette…

a natural gemstone collection- for the gnomes in your life ;)

2 beeswax candles from Big Dipper Waxworks in spring-themed screen-printed glass…

& Ostheimer’s Amethyst Dwarf and 3 shiny amethyst clusters for him to guard.

For the last giveaway I did, I asked everyone to offer a blessing for our new baby as I had just found out I was expecting.  It was such a joy to read those good wishes and to have them to look back on! With my due date 27 days away (holy moly!), it seems right to ask for a birthing blessing or piece of wisdom that helped make one of your births more peaceful and wonderful as an entry for the giveaway.  For extra entries, share this giveaway on facebook- and if you haven’t already liked Cedar Ring Circle on Facebook or followed this blog, extra entry points if you do! Giveaway ends March 3rd at midnight.

In other news, our last Cedar Ring Circle order is in full swing and I’ve extended the deadline to Sunday, March 3rd as a tummy bug swept through our house early this week and I am a bit behind on getting those new Grimm’s items all loaded into the catalog.  They have some lovely new dolls, including dollhouse family sets, and beautiful glittering mandala puzzles that I adore!

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If you’d like to order with us, feel free to join us this month for the budget-minded mama’s selection of everything Waldorf… we are ordering wool felt, roving, wool yarns, wool batting, silk for playsilks, fiber arts tools, Waldorf books, art supplies, musical instruments, wooden toys from Ostheimer, Grimm’s, Kinderkram, & Georgian Wood Toys; woolens & organic cotton clothing, heirloom seeds, beeswax & beeswax sheets, candles, playsilks and dress-up silks, and more!  As I explained to members, I’m not sure when I’ll return to offering our group orders after this- it will depend on our new baby’s personality and needs.  I’m leaving it pretty open-ended, aren’t I?  Perhaps it’s because I am imagining an idyllic summer of turning my computer off most of the time, soaking in the sun and playing in the garden with a wee one on my back in a carrier! ;)

UPDATE: And the winner, chosen by Random.Org, is… Commenter #2, Kory!  Congratulations Kory!

Brrr, it’s been cold in the northeast.  It seems we get a fresh batch of beautiful pure, white snow at least every other day, and with sniffly noses my children have been inside more than we’d like to be.  I’m trying to include lots of nature in our lessons, so at least in our imaginations we are lost in the great outdoors!

This week the Cloud Boy and his family had a counting adventure.  One way to get down from their mountain to the village is to cross the stream.  It is a wide stream, and during summer when the water ran low they placed 30 rocks across the stream to serve as stepping stones, spaced very close to each other so even the baby can walk across them.  The toddler likes to jump to every other stone, the Cloud Boy hops three stones at a time, the Cloud Boy’s father, his leg injury fully healed and now sprightly as the sheep and mountain goats once again, hops four stones at a time; and their friend, the Giant, hops five whole stones at a time! As everyone jumps we practice counting by ones, twos, threes, fours, and fives. Of course we like to do a bit of jumping ourselves, imagining the stream winding beneath us.

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“The baby walks from rock to rock. 1, 2, 3…”

We found the smooth, black river rocks and a silver paint marker at the craft store, and already had the silk “river”.  My toddler has been busily playing all morning with the extra rocks- I think we’ll all be having rock soup for lunch!  Aren’t my peg people rather boring?  I’ll admit I haven’t gotten creative with them at all.  But I’m super excited about the new book by Maragaret Bloom, Making Peg Dolls- 192 pages of Waldorf crafting fun!  Hopefully we’ll be livening up our peg dolls soon.  I already have five of these lovely books en route for the Cedar Ring Circle shop, and I’ve included the book in our next special order (last one before my maternity leave!) which I should be ready to start taking orders on by tomorrow (later than I planned, but better late than never- it’s been a crazy month with wheels falling off of vehicles, major appliances breaking, home renovations, animal mishaps, and stolen debit cards!).  Stay tuned for the discount code and order details if you’re a Cedar Ring Circle member or on our email list. ;)

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(Shared on Annette’s Waldorf Wednesday linkup. The best thing to happen to Wednesdays since millet!)

Moon Two- Acceptance

Second moon is often when women realize there is a new life within. We piece together the connection between what comes from ourselves and what comes from another, the joining together of two into one, and the acceptance our body offers the emplanting of the embryo.  I am not sure our bodies’ physical reactions are completely out of the realm of consciousness, although I certainly don’t feel so “connected” to myself at a primal level to be aware of it ocurring as some claim to be.  What I am very aware of is my emotional reaction and personal acceptance of bringing a new life into this world.  With each pregnancy, this felt a bit different.  Some were met with joy, others felt unsettling due to timing.

I believe “everything happens for a reason” and life offers the lessons- gifts- I need to help me be who I am destined to be. I am not just a physical being having a spiritual experience while on this earth, but rather, a spiritual being having an earthly experience.  For me, whether or not I am going to accept this new life is not a question- I unequivocally will.  But it is still sometimes a process, a journey, an undertaking- to mirror that open, welcoming womb in my attitude and heart of hearts. I understand others do not share my beliefs and may view a new life as a choice, and I respect their freedom to believe what they believe.  I believe in choice too- but I view myself as having made the choice already, before I began my journey into this life, and by signing on to slide down the rainbow bridge, I chose to accept whatever I was offered, as a gift, yes- even the difficult things- not with an attitude of complacency or resignednes, but with a willingness to make the best of all things- to, when I contract from those difficult experiences, as the earth- create diamonds from coal. In my personal experience, I always create more pain and suffering for myself by not coming to a place of acceptance and willingness to make all things beautiful with integrity, love and openness. I would never try to force someone else to adopt my viewpoint, but I offer it as a possibility… one that has added richness to my life.

As I meditate on acceptance, I imagine myself softening, expanding, and becoming a sanctuary. I think back to the vision I had at the beginning of this pregnancy and the golden beam of light streaming down from the heavens and descending into me.  I go back to that image often, feeling the dazzle and warmth of that beam again, feeling it descending into me and becoming one with me.  Perhaps this is a good time to ask for a vision, a phrase, or a promise to hold onto and center with.

As morning sickness or physical discomfort may appear, see if you can get a copy of the article “Morning Wellness” by Patrick Houser from the magazine Pathways to Family Wellness (I can’t find a link online).  In this article, the author chronicles how his wife transformed “morning sickness” into “morning wellness” by journalling through her turbulent emotions. If you have chosen to accept a pregnancy, but are having a difficult time emotionally or physically as you embrace new life, write or say the words “I am completely at peace with this pregnancy and its timing”- and see what conflicting thoughts or ideas rise up in response.  Take each one seriously, working through the dissonance to find the beauty and harmony of accepting what Life offers, in your own gracious way- and allowing yourself the to have conflicting feelings, observing them with objectivity.  Sometimes the best way to come to a place of inner peace is as simple as switching from the subjective state of feeling your conflicting feelings, to the objective state of noticing them, validating their existence, and “being with them” without judgement. Once the emotional reaction dissipates, it can be much easier to make a decision to dwell on and continue to host only the thoughts and feelings that will be helpful.  For instance, when a fear surfaces about whether the baby will be healthy, I notice it, then consciously decide not to worry about the health of my baby- rather, I use feelings of worry or thoughts of potential problems as a reminder to take my prenatals or do something positive for myself and the baby, all the while sending blessings and good vibes to the two of us.

Acceptance can take two paths.  It can lead to apathy, resignedness, inaction- a victim mentality that this just happened to me.  Or, it can spur us on towards making the very best of the circumstances and opportunities we face as we take hold of life as active participants who help determine the final outcome. I find myself constantly engaged in choosing the positive model of acceptance during a pregnancy, because this is a time when social and environmental problems tend to bother me more than any other time.    What kind of world am I bringing a new human being into?  One that desperately needs people who care about it to stand up and help transform it. One that needs people to “”accept the challenge”. And with this current pregnancy, more than any other, I have a sense of this soul’s insistence on taking part in Life and coming for a reason… I’ve been reminded of the words in Esther 4:14- “And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”

And I begin teaching this incarnating person how to accept Life with graciousness and positivity, by doing so myself now.

So maybe one day, when I have a little extra time (ha!) I will write a book with this title- but for now a short summary will have to do to capture my thoughts…  Last night as I drove home the almost two hour drive from visiting my homebirth midwife’s office, I was inspired by the night sky to think about the moon and stars and reflect on a more traditional view of pregnancy.  While we tend to think of a pregnancy’s duration as “nine months”, the more traditional idea would be “ten moons”.  A pregnancy technially lasts 40 weeks- which is 40 x 7, or 280 days.  A moon cycle is about 28 days- x 10, also 280 days.  The moon certainly represents a symbol of femininity and in a perfect scenario, guides us through our monthly cycle.  Before alarm clarks and LED’s and nightlights, many women found the light of the moon influenced them strongly.  It is no secret that light and fertility are interconnected- as soon as the days lengthen a bit after winter solstice, no matter how cold it actually is, my chickens begin laying more (and many people put artificial light in coops just to increase egg production year round).  Likewise, a full moon would be peak time for a woman to ovulate, and new moon, to bleed.  We have a skylight in our bedroom, and I strategically placed our bed so that I lay right beneath the skylight, with the effect of the moon in mind. Like the moon, we expand and contract in our cycle each month- from our open, expanding, glowing fertile state to our closed, contracting, shedding state of menstruation.  When my midwife and I tried to figure out my due date, I hadn’t been charting or paying attention to the calendar- but I knew I ovulated last with June’s full moon, and ten moons from then, at March’s full moon, my babe should arrive (unless other forces are at work- prehaps another time is destined and he or she will be early or late- but still, perfectly on time!).  Even in this day and age when many women of our society are incredibly disconnected to the natural cycle of life and nature, it is reputed that more women give birth during full moons than any other time of the month.  I’m sure the gravitational pull of the moon on water as seen on the tides also effects us when we are ready to deliver, with a small sea of waters inside safely enveloping our little one!

As I was reflecting on how little I actually get to reflect on my pregnancy with three little ones, a co-op to run, homesteading, and homeschooling, I imagined what I would love to reflect on if I did set aside more time to dwell on the growing baby.  I thought of the correlation between what changes our bodies are experiencing each month and how the baby develops, and came up with a rough framework of meditations…

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We don’t usually find out that we are pregnant until, at least, the end of the first month- but for those of us who are actively trying to conceive, I think “creation” is a wonderful theme for a first month of pregnancy.  A wise woman once told me “we are either birthing babies or ideas”.  In other words, we all have such tremendous creative power in life, and we can harness this to manifest in outward creative acts, or store it up within and use that energy to build a baby.  When I close my eyes, I can visualize the very world being formed and and every living thing coming into being.  Since I believe in a Creator, whose image I reflect, I believe I have this common quality of bringing things into being, all originating in thought and will.  One of my favorite mantras is “we create our own reality”.  It reminds me to be slow to come to conclusions and not to run willy nilly into believing everything I hear- for what we believe often determines in large part what we create of our lives- or fail to create!  When I was younger, I was easily swayed by people who seemed either more intelligent or more knowledgeable than what I believed myself to be, or who were just plain confident and convincing.  This would result in crisis for me when I encountered two people who were both knowledgeable and convincing and had opposing views!  I remember I hated “debate” because I would leave a debate feeling confused about what to believe in- but now, I truly enjoy it and love looking at an issue from every angle. I love the story of the ten blind men and the elephant- each grabbing hold of a different part of the elephant and arguing to each other about what the elephant is like- and yet, all of them were in part, correct- they just lacked a holistic perspective. We often cling to one way of looking at an issue instead of holding it like a ball in our hands and viewing it from all sides.  Instead of one possible solution to a problem, there are often many potential ones if we allow ourselves to be “unlimited” by preconceived ideas or prejudices.  Likewise, we can choose how we view the world around us and create a beautiful reality rather than swallow whatever ideas, opinions, and beliefs that are handed to us by everything we take in from others around us.  To be in balance, we certainly must use past experience and knowledge obtained from logical processes along with awe, wonder, and open-mindedness as we draw conclusions and form our guiding beliefs.

We can also vow to protect our young children from too many of our own judgements, ideas, and potentially limiting beliefs- giving them the best chances for creating a beautiful reality of their own.  In reflection, what have I been creating for myself, and what life have I been building?  How can I free the little one I long for or know to be forming within from limiting beliefs or my own personal (perhaps even selfish) desires for who and what this new being will become- and in effect, offer that child the same free will to be a self determining, creative being that my Creator gifted me with?  How can I find the balance between loving, careful guidance and the freedom this little one will need to incarnate into his or herself?  How do I take responsibility for the creative manifestion of this baby’s physical body, and still honor the idea Khalil Gibran so eloquently expressed-

“Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable”.

As I meditate on creation, I visualize a work of art being formed.  I imagine the intent, the care, the individual expression of the artist.  I watch the work unfold without judgement and focus on being at one with the process, letting it flow from me rather than be forced out by me- allowing it to become what it seeks to be in concert with the beauty I can offer to the process.

Steiner encouraged mothers/childcare givers to reflect on Raphael’s masterpiece “The Sistine Madonna.” What a beautiful way to honor the act of creating at this time while preparing for a new life. In his article “The Sistine Madonna: Thoughts and Experiences”, Waldorf kindergarten teacher Stephen Spitalny writes:

“An important element for me is the healing qualities of the painting, which Rene Querido described as a yantra. A yantra is an image that works on a person on many  levels, even by its mere presence. Margret Meyerkort helped me to see the wonderful  loving gesture with which the baby is held, an archetypal mother gesture. She pointed out the earlike, listening gesture of the painting itself, in the form and shape of the mother and her cloak. She especially helped me to see that the picture does  not characterize a situation on the physical earth, but that the veils are pulled  back and we get a glimpse beyond. Also, the colors of red and blue in her cloak  and dress stand out as archetypal healing colors, especially helpful for the young  child. The barefoot mother is carrying the child down through the clouds toward  the material world as two saints look on, one looking away in deep reverence, and  the other in sadness and resignation, pointing the way forward and downward to incarnation.  The curtained veils are parted so that we can glimpse this holy moment. We can also  see many faces in the clouds, awaiting their moment of becoming a child on their own path toward incarnation.

Raphael made this painting to depict Mary and her child Jesus, yet this is also  a depiction of every child. Each comes from the heavenly world in a similar manner  to this depiction, surrounded by angels and saints and the other spirits waiting  to incarnate.”

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To Be Continued…

(Shared on Annette’s Waldorf Wednesday Link Up)

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